Thursday, October 26, 2006
For a special someone.
Your back is up against a wall. You have no where to turn no one to lean on. And the more you try the worst the situation gets. Then you begin to wonder and second guess yourself. Society made you believe that this is part your fault, you should have been strong enough, good enough brave enough.
To do what?
You're confused by what you should do and what your heart tells you is right. And the more you listen to your heart you realise it was no fault of yours or your sisters. She was being and ordinary teenager. Met a guy online, started talking to him and believed he was going to marry her. How was she to know he would turn out to be scum? Using her like he pleases because he knows he can, the same society that condemns her gives him the power to do what he wants, he knows he has her under his thumb. She is not to blame neither are you. The culprit is society making something innocent into a crime. Your mother, brother and father because of if they were different your back wouldn't be up against a wall. If their daughter meant more to them then people you would have someone to lean on. They are not strong enough to do what's right, good enough to forgive and brave enough to forget their so called honour and care about their flesh and blood.
You're the brave one the strong one the good one. You have no one to turn to so do what's right and god will look after you and yours.
I watch and know more than you think and I love and respect you for it.
For all those special someone's.
10:31 AM
Ace
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Sunday, October 22, 2006
tagged by the 63sahlicious™ taqo.
Ok i know this is late but i always had the intention of doing it but one thing kept on leading to another.
Last birthday? I turned 21 (just shut up ok)
Last meal? Shwarma for su7ur two actually.
Last spending splurge? My d&g mobile (yes people my wish list came true)
Last time you cried? ummm i was watching v for vendetta.
Last career? Teaching my two subjects for the whole summer.
Last website visited? Taqo's blog.
Last person you spoke to? Our helper.
Last song you listened to? Unfaithful.
Last book you read? The artic incident artemis fowl (been looking for that book for two years and taqo just comes and gives it to me two days ago, she had it all this time and i was blaming Diabz, sorry)
Last TV show watched? Umm i haven't been watching tv for a few weeks so roots must be it.
Last person you IM’d? Kadooj.
Last word you said? Yeah, yeah (i know i'm so interesting, bas what do u say to ur little sis when shes pointing to pictures of a lion and asking u if its Simba and you are trying to do ur tag?)
I tag...... umm everyone has been tagged right as i took soooooo long to do it myself.
2:20 AM
Ace
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Monday, October 16, 2006
fasting person syndrome (I'm sure it must be some kind of disorder)
Ok my week turned out way better than I thought it would. We only had one quiz out of the three promised. We had to beg the bio teacher out of that one, bas I have a feeling she couldn't be bothered either the last lesson the last day of school come on! Then my friends and I ditched one stat lesson actually only two girls went. The stat teacher marked us all as absent even though we ran straight past her when she was on the way to our lesson, thank god for small favors, but I don't know how you actually missed three quarters of your class running past you, I'm not complaining anyhow. I went to her the next day and told her I'm dropping stat at school and doing it at home, she was rather nice about it and told me if I needed help to come to her. A gave her a winning smile and told her 3la 3yniy. The iftar on a good note was sooo much fun, I haven't laughed so much for a long time. If you want fun in this country you're all alone mate the government see no profit in it for themselves, so it was one of those rare times when we dealt with that problem.
We were being extremely greedy at the start you know that fasting persons thing when u believe you can conquer the world, but after you break your fast and eat a few things you realize that u can't eat half of what you took. Well yeah that kinda happened to us.
We still had loads and loads of food when we finished, but hey we have a conscience we put every thing we couldn't eat straight back and felt bad about taking all that food in the first place. All the other tables had ordinary amounts of food each person with there own plate we had serving plates full and two big boxes of pizza, but in our defense I'm sure no one had been as hungry as us, we are growing girls la2 tlumuna.
7:45 PM
Ace
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Friday, October 06, 2006
Of school, bad stat teachers and other stories
Next week is gonna be hectic. I have two bio quizzes, an iftar in school and I have to think of a nice way of telling the statistics teacher that I'm dropping stats in school and doing it at home cuz I don't understand a word that she says in class, really, shes that bad.
I know some of u are going wtf? Didn't this girl graduate last year? Yes I did graduate from Arabic school. But I wanted to enhance my knowledge and expand my already saturated brain. My thirst for information couldn't be quenched so I decided to go back to school to...
...alright fast forward the crap.
The truth be told, I've gone to English school to finish of my a-levels, I tried to do it in thalith last year but it was too much. I was thinking of using my Arabic certificate to go into occupational therapy in UK, but a friend of mine just went back to England with her's and was discriminated against and is now wasting two years of her life doing an access course to get into uni. So as I'm staying her waiting for my sis anyway, I'm going to do my A-levels inshallah as not to waste more time, than I have already. I was gonna stay at home and do it bas I tried it for a week and almost died of boredom. Anyway I know it will be better doing it at school, cuz I'll have monthly's and end of semester exams which I'll have to study for. Aaaaand I'm gonna get another graduation party, hahaha, how cool is that.
So far I really like my new school. It's everything that my old school wasn't. The teachers are nice and very helpful. The girls are sweethearts and I've made some really wonderful friends in the short time I've been there. And we are given proper space to have some fun and are treated properly and not like a bunch of caged up animals.It is also not full of hypocritical bitches, who made my life miserable under the pretence of being just and religious.And you get extra privileges being a level, we can come to school late and leave if we don't have lessons and we get to do a lot of things all we have to do is say the magic word (a-levels) and you don't have to worry about doorman or sectaries or the headmistress. The poor SAT girls are always getting put back in class when they try to ditch.
School just won't let go of me, after this year i'm gonna treat it as a terrible swear word, say it and you get your mouth washed out.
Yes I am serious.
12:29 PM
Ace
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Monday, October 02, 2006
The Way I See It.
It's official, I just enrolled for my A-levels my social life is gonna go into the minus figures now for the next few months. Not only am I doing A-levels which need ALOT of commitment I'm doing the syllabus that takes two years in one. But hey this is my passport to getting a life. Y3niy if I don't do well in these exams, England and any chance of finding my long lost life goes bye, bye. So if it means studying for 15 hours a day, hardly seeing my friends for the next few months, not going to any blogger meet ups *sigh* and having to wear glasses when I'm finished, than I shall do it inshallah. It really isn't a big price to pay to find my life again. The view from my window looks pretty bleak at the moment but I shall do it.
So help me God.
6:05 AM
Ace
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