~About me~

Ace
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Likes Reading Surfing the net Shakespear Reality TV

Dislikes Two-faced people Fish My old school

~My Wish List~

{Uni in England}
{This}
{This}
{And to do well on my A levels ;)}

~Fellow Reflectors~

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 Diablo}
 3loosha}
 Sweet 3an8er}
 Jo}
 !ns@n!ty}
 Ren Crow}
 Fa$h!on!$ta}
 Foofa}
 Sister's story site}

~voices~


~credits~

blogskins
blogger
echoica
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~the reflector's past~

May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 March 2007 May 2007 July 2007 October 2007 September 2008 December 2009

Monday, December 28, 2009

Where...

Hey ho,

So I’m sitting in my room in Riyadh literally dying of boredom I go and start reading through my blog. It’s crazy I feel as if I don’t even know that girl, care free and worrying about trivial things. That is no longer my life. I live with a constant knot in my stomach, I wake up do whatever it is I have to do that day, shop, eat, smile, laugh and this god damn pain NEVER goes. When I just sit still and stop for a second I am cruelly reminded of my loss. Reminded that no matter what I do and how happy I’m supposed to be my little girl is dead and gone, buried in shitty depressive England. I’m never going to be able to sit down and have a ridiculous conversation with her , dance with her or read to her again. I was her big sister I used to watch over her, spoil her and love her. This is what I am constantly reminded of every day an endless list of things past and a future that I took for granted that I will now never have.

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10:42 AM
Ace


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